a stammer diary

When I had 21 year old; I write a long dispatch; some thing very emotional and innocent in nature. Now in  2014 I remember that one. At that time I wish and think that in coming days a big opportunity wait for me. My heart is so kind at that time.
I love and fear God. Now I get that point Sourabh relaxed; there is queue of people which are more sinful than u. Some thing missing is the age of youth; full of love;  2 minutes memory of loved ones and than we sink in to great dream. Every day is new adventure.
What a contrast situation; your soul is so sweet but your body is not up to mark.your soul demand to meet with different fellow but body breaks that.
Even as intellectual I like the person whose body is in proper shape inspire his top floor is blank.

kumar gandharva

he is very special for me. he recreates kabir spiritualism for us. a question arise on my mind that why our educationalist do not include chapter of musician for us.only chapter i read in my hindi book is about ustad allauddin khan. in school i do not know even the name of kumar gandharva. after reading a poem of ashok vajpayee, i thrilled that any poet can write independent poem on any musician. it is great tribute to any poet to musician. yatindra mishra also wrote wonderful poem about girija devi.
                                                                                                                 it is our ignorance that we always criticise classical musician but it is great virtue for us when we give some time for it.

controversy about vishvaroopam

i am deeply embarrassed from the contemporary situation faced by country, some orthodox section of society create panic situation for all religious people. some fanatic element who do not know the real meaning of religion think that there thought process is perfect only and other are non sense. now it is high time for intellectual to come and direct nonviolent assault against them.
                                                                  remember it is our our duty to fight against fanatism, if we miss it, the ball is in the hand of other people which are also orthodox but follwing different camp.
                                   kamal hasan sahab whom give us wonderful film for indian cinema. how a person feel that he misinterpret any religion, if any one still feels that it is his fault so he is ready to cut the seen which some segment of society feel is objectionable.
                                                             it is shameful affair for our society that only one fanatic person either he is muslim or hindu give fatwa against any artistic depiction.
                                                                   please see the hussain sahab at last the greatest painter of india will live our country forever and now he never return, please let us fight to save koh-a-noor of indian cinema.

when khushwant meet meena kumari

khushwant singh, man with innocent and golden heart, although at first glance he looked like a radical person but in his true spirit he follow the great tradition of india,
                                                                                     always he said that he does not believe in god but in his writing we seen the close appearance of god. if u dont believe in this , please see the translation of vaisno jan to tene kahiye by him.this is also example of perfect translation. he loves bapu gandhi and he through out admire of bapu gandhi style of journalism although it is the mix blend of khushwant style of sex and scotch journalism also.
                           if any one asked about me what is his best contribution to indian society, i just say, he is the mirror of indian rich intellectual class, he collected memories of 100 years, his memory expand from nazism to newly born modism.
                                     some time i feel, he exaggerate the situation and create false situation, i give u one example. when rafiq jakaria take him in rigal cinema, a beautiful woman sit beside him, she often smoke during play, atlast khushwant asked to her, who are u, she just said nothing and get annoyed than rafiq tell to him gadhe she is meena kumari. even it is not true khushwant will create nice fantasy for us.

                                                                                                                                         

my remembrence of jaspal bhatti

july1999

i am in delhi, a metropolitan city, every thing excited me here. a big world compare to my small town raipur, in new delhi railway station, my freind and i seen the jaspal bhatti, he just arrived from shatabdi express, we astonished, the person we seen everyday in tv but to see him nearby is like very difficult assumption. we give her introduction and request him for autograph. he was tyred but give us autograph, although it is very small event in bhatti ji life but it is very touching exp. for us

harkha bai

harkhabai or heerakunwar bai, a very special figure in history. daughter of ordinary feudal lord whom destiny take to a great way to the moghul queen of india. in jodha-akbar ashutosh govarikar show the conflict of a great lady. in song khwaja mere khwaja, we seen lot of emotion. although akbar allowed him to follow her tradition in some extent. we have seen the mural painting of Krishna in fatehpur seekri, tulsi chaura in palace but we clear seen her destiny in her last stage of life. her cremation is followed by Islamic tradition.

मेरा पीएससी का इंटरव्यू-१

जब मेंस का रिजल्ट आया तो बड़ी खुशी हुई लेकिन उसी क्षण से इंटरव्यू को लेकर चिंता भी शुरू हो गई। जब लोगों के इंटरव्यू के अनुभव सुने तो डर बढ़ गया। एक बोर्ड तो ऐसा रहा जिसने पूरी तौर पर खौफ कायम किया, प्रश्न इतने कठिन कि उत्तर दे पाना संभव ही नहीं, आपको एक और उम्र लग जाए इन जवाबों को देने के लिए। वन्य जीवन में हॉबी रखने वाले एक मित्र से ऐसे प्रश्न पूछे जिसके जवाब दे पाने संभव नहीं थे क्योंकि इनमें से बहुत कुछ ग्रामीण किवदंतिंयों पर आधारित थे। फिर भी इस बोर्ड की विशेषता थी कि इसमें इंटरव्यू के नये तरीकों का इस्तेमाल किया गया और हर दिन रोचक बातें सुनने को मिलीं मसलन एक लड़की से खड़े-खड़े ही इंटरव्यू लिया गया। एक लड़के से प्रदेश के यूनिवर्सिटी के नाम पूछे गये, १२ नाम बता दिये, उसने कहा कि एक औऱ नाम बता दोगे तो सलेक्शन पक्का। एक पुरानी कहानी याद आई, राजा ने कहा था कि शाम तक जितनी जमीन दौड़ोगे, वो तुम्हारी हो जायेगी। दौड़ तो लिया लेकिन जब वापसी के लिए एक गज जमीन बाकी थी तो उसने दम तोड़ दिया। 
                                                      इस बोर्ड की सबसे अच्छी बात यह थी कि इसने छत्तीसगढ़ी संस्कृति को अहम स्थान दिया। अटकन-बटकन दही चटाका का मतलब पूछा गया, पुरानी छत्तीसगढ़ी कहावतों को पूछा गया, जाहिर है ऐसे लोगों को इससे तवज्जो मिलेगी जिन्होंने छत्तीसगढ़ी संस्कृति पर मेहनत की हो तथा जमीन से जुड़े हों। 
                                      बोर्ड का गठन ग्लोकल आधार पर किया गया था,  कुछ आईएएस बुलाये गये थे जिन्होंने अंतरराष्ट्रीय स्तर पर प्रश्न पूछे, इनमें पूर्व आईएएस अधिकारी बीकेएस रे का नाम प्रमुख है वे लोगों से विभिन्न देशों की राजधानियाँ पूछ रहे थे। छत्तीसगढ़ पीएससी में दक्षिण सूडान से संबंधित प्रश्न पूछा जाना सुखद अनुभव रहा।
                                      दिन करीब आ रहे थे और अंत में वो दिन आ गया, ११ सितंबर की सुबह मेरा इंटरव्यू था। इंटरव्यू देने २० लोग आये थे, मेरे बगल से पश्चिम उत्तरप्रदेश से आये एक शख्स बैठे थे, मैंने उनका नाम पूछा, बताया संजीव, आश्चर्य यह लगा कि उन्होंने मेरा नाम नहीं पूछा, इतना पूछा कि लोकल हो क्या, मैंने कहा हाँ, आश्चर्य यह भी लगा कि उन्होंने तुम से बातचीत की, तुम एक अच्छा संबोधन है लेकिन यह अजीब लगा कि आप पहली बार किसी से बात कर रहे हो और उससे तुम का संबोधन कर रहे हो, मैंने उनसे हिस्ट्री का स्कोर पूछा, उन्होंने बताया ३२५, मुझसे पूछा मैंने बताया ३३३। उन्होंने आश्चर्य व्यक्त किया कि इतना स्कोर कैसे आ सकता है। संभवतः उनका आश्चर्य इस बात को लेकर था कि एक छत्तीसगढ़िया इतने अंक कैसे ला सकता है। यहाँ मैं यूपी की मानसिकता को टारगेट नहीं कर रहा हूँ क्योंकि संजीव बरेली से आये थे और उन्हीं से २५०  किमी दूर गढ़वाल से संदीप आये थे, वे बेहद विनम्र थे। संजीव के बारे में अगले अंक में लिखुँगा।...